happy post.

Ok , this one is going to be a happy post. I am tired of being down and depressed all the time. Although , I realized one thing. The moment I become happy I am so scared. why? because I know it won't last.SO then I can't wait to be down again. I am basically more comfortable when I am a little sad I think. I am a lot sober and reality doesn't hit me like a ton of bricks every other time. So, alright .Think happy.
Ah. yes. happy times.
growing up was just the most uneventful period of my life. It was so normal to the point of being dull.But I loved it then and I would still love to have it all over again. why ? Because there were zero complications.
All I was ever bothered about was pizza, stationery, cleaning my room , watching tv and sleeping in air conditioning. seriously.
haha. And I loved having crushes then. They were so pure. They were so much fun and sweet.
ooh...am going at a tangent here but I am just writing about all the stuff that made me happy back then.
I used to be into the swat kats . remember that cartoon . T - bone and what's-his-name...oh yeah razor.wow I used to so love that show . And of course the wonder years and small wonder and doogie howser. I grew up on them and of course the coffee and snacks along with watching tv. I loved my life then. I got everything I wanted , Probably because my wants weren't that much. There used to be a staionery store near my house and I had to go there everyday just to check out the stationery. It was that simple.
But I think everything started changing drastically by the time I was in the tenth. BY then i was into dido and roswell wishing for a guy like michael from the show and of course into reading big time. And my crushes blossomed into serious heart ache.lol Those were the days. I loved every minute of my love sickeness.I guess that was just me you know. Oh wow . there are so many things about growing up that I cherish. It's so hard to think of me as grown up.