sanity

i have lost.I don't know where to begin. But I thought this post would be a little bit about the person I was. Before I joined college, I was quite literally the queen of my court. I had an amazing set of close friends, a larger set of friends and big circle of people I just knew and a bigger circle of people who knew me. I was popular. And I was appreciated. I was smart. I knew it and people about me knew it. I was well- mannered . Still am. I had priorities. which hae drastically changed.And I had a lot of love in my life. And lots of laughter. And lots of fun. I mean there were fights, mean ones. But no bitterness. They were fair fights. You would never feel like a loser at the end of the fight , you know. Man things have changed. One thing I have noticed. As you grow older , the need to be recognized increases.And by whatever means, that has to be achieved. I have come across very few people who have actually managed to do that with grace.I think today I was just thinking about how it was like before when it was all about being fair, understanding another's problems and healthy competition. It's a sad world we live in now. There is no competition, it's literally a bloodbath. And I want no part.Damn , I don't think I can finish this post.