So a little about my life at this moment. I sort of feel like bandit queen because I feel like I need to be rebellious to make a point.Like if I were all sane and reasoned everything out with patience and taking time, I think I would be wasting Time. I feel like right now, I am explaining every minute of my life to somebody else. Sort of justifying every action.I wonder why. Probably this is why. I go to a college where Taking a deep breah without permission might land you in serious trouble. I still live at home at the age of 21 with my parents so every minute not spend studying is sort of having to be justified. Why am I taking a break? Because I just walked in the sun from College. Well then you should have just stayed in the library till it was evening and then come home.
They are probably right . But I want my life to go my way. Why ?Cause it's my god-damn life!
So anyway the events of the last few weeks have left me un-nerved to say the least. I have sort of plummeted from being slightly having found some order in my life to finding nothing at all.I am questioning everything everyday. Why did I put up with shoddy friendships, shoddy professionalism , shoddy everything for the past so many years. Did I have a choice? I actually did and I didn't do anything about it.
Crap. I was sort of thinking of writing down a post rationally and calmly. Why am I so angry?
I am so angry at myself. SO angry .
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Ah, enjoy this period while it lasts. Imagine when you will have to justify inane stuff to your boss?
Being the student is perhaps the best part of life, after that, its all downhill. Being rebellious is cool at this point, afterwards, its suicidal and amounts to career Hara Kiri.
Oh shit, i feel like going back to school again ...
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